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Friday

After work Dave took me to his parents' church along with his family to watch Portland Christian Center's Christmas concert. Truth be told, I invited myself. It had been a number of years since I had gone to see the performance. I've been in the mood to do some standard Christmasy things lately. I am trying to enjoy the holiday season in spite of recent unfortunate and painful happenings. It's been hard, but I guess I'm doing OK. We all went out to Jin Wah for dinner, and I spent the night at Dave's house.

Saturday

Saturday Dave, Hillary and I finally watched all three Lord of the Rings movies. Obviously we've all seen them before. The idea was to have a marathon, watching all three extended editions in one day. Dave and I got up pretty early (for a Saturday) and headed up to Vancouver. Hillary's aunt and uncle have a nice house with a great theater room. The picture and sound were awesome.

Everyone except me played quite a bit of RockBand on the XBox 360. Those aren't my type of game, though it looked somewhat fun. I suppose I might be interested in trying it if I knew the songs. I'm pretty clueless when it comes to standard rock music though. Obviously there aren't any Christian songs that I might know.

Dave dropped me off at my parents' house. Rather than making my dad take me home at 2:00 in the morning, I opted to spend the night.

Sunday

I slept well Saturday night. Dad knocked on the basement door around 12:30 in the afternoon. Lunch was being prepared. There was much snow outside by this time, the first of the season. We ate a yummy lunch that Grandma prepared. Dad took me home in the afternoon, and I've been relaxing ever since. Church was canceled today due to the wintry weather. I'm kinda wishing work will be closed tomorrow, but I doubt it will be. I'm sure I'll be walking in the ice and snow. I don't think I'm daring enough to attempt biking in it. Yippy Skippy.

I had my mom take a few pictures of me. I was pleased my parents bothered to decorate their house. I haven't done much decoration at home. It's hard for me to feel motivated to do it this year because I have no one to share it with. How I long to have someone special here to share life with, even simple things like decorating a Christmas tree. It's impossible to list the things I miss.

I try not to let loneliness get the better of me, but I'm no bastion of strength. Even so, it was a blessing to my eyes to see my parents' Christmas tree this weekend! Some day I trust Yeshua my King will restore all things, make them new. Until that day, I will ounce, cup, pint and quart my trust in Him, the measurements of my hope equally as senseless.

Thank you God, that I still have my extended family. Not everything is a total loss, for You have blessed me with life and enough gifts for any man to rejoice in! I am blessed way more than others who suffer more greatly than I do. Forgive me for my sins and my weakness, Lord.

Thank you, family, for loving and keeping me, even if parts of me are imperfect and undesirable. I need this kind of love, and your expressions and supply to me are like seeing the very face of God where otherwise pitch black darkness surrounds. And you, my extended family in Christ, you too are a rich blessing from the Lord. Returned blessings to all in Christ. If His power and love flow out from me in the form of something good, I share with you all. Merry Christmas.