Esotropiart

Just a few days ago I discovered something that just might renew my interest in the fine, manual arts. For a number of years, I have been entirely out of practice with drawing and painting. My focus has been on computer generated artwork. I've always longed to spend more time drawing, mastering techniques. I feel like I am a hopelessly locked box of unrealized potential. Nothing I create ever feels like my all went into it, like it's the "best" I can do. I always have the feeling I can do a million times better. I hope I am not the man who digs a hole and hides his talent in the ground. That is part of what I hope Esotropiart will be, a revelation of any (if any) good that might be reflected in the gifts God has given me. My goal is to include everything I've ever done. In the end, the site should work much like a life story, with many of my thoughts, all my works, and some captured experiences.

This recent discovery may well be the renaissance I needed to become artistically motivated again. I never felt my artwork in of itself was something I could pursue as a career. This doubt has been the primary factor in my lapse of significant artistic venture in the last 10 years or so (with a few exceptions). Maybe that's not important. Perhaps I'm meant to be yet another starving artist. Hopefully a few important messages will be conveyed through my work that perhaps the world is crying out for. It would take a miracle of divine intervention of serious proportion, but that is my dream and hope.

I will not reveal just yet what the source of my new aesthetic inspiration and excitement is. Instead, I will share the first fruits of my labor. After discovering this new artistic potential, I drew out a simple 3" x 5" card - my preferred size, as those close to me would know. I need to experiment with a few things before I share and expound on what I feel is so exciting. I'll keep you posted (all 2.73 of you regular readers - on a good day!).

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