Esotropiart

Throughout the last couple weeks I have been very introspective and full of thought. I haven't slept much these days. My mind keeps me awake into the wee hours of the night. My latest pastime has been looking through papers and journals from my youth. I see how much more passion and a heart for God that I had. I'll hopefully write more about this later. For a long time I've wished to add a feature to my site that looks back into these different segments of my life, since that is much of what I intended this site to be about. Those additions will come sooner or later.

As a side note, I have Chris to thank indirectly because our fairly recent discussion (see comments on this post) about neology and poetry inspired me to try to find my old poetry and take a look at it. Looking at my old poetry is what inspired me to write these new poems. And yes, Chris, I will eventually get Chon Chon and Cuddley Chang up on my site.

Another thing I lost since my youth is a desire to write poetry. I used to write it quite often. Granted, I was never accomplished in this endeavor, but it brought me peace and often released those emotions that needed releasing. For a couple nights I have toyed with the idea of sitting down to write a poem. To be honest, it comes quite easily to me. I don't need to scour my brain for a topic. It just flows. It may not make much sense or be cohesive, but it comes out, nonetheless. Late last night I managed to write 4 unique and unrelated poems. Since I still haven't implemented my Poetry EsoGallery, I'll share these new poems here.

This first one was written with my Grandpa Honey in mind. It deals with some of the issues that probably haunt him. He struggles with near complete blindness, deafness, and disability. He struggles with not having his joy stolen from him. He is a great man of God, so it seems unfair that had he been born a little later, his eye trouble probably could have seen repair. So this poem speaks, if nothing else, some of what I feel when I think of his plight. Of course hope is offered in the end. Even though we have unanswered questions, we trust that God has kept His promises and is still good... and eternity and fullness of joy await.